editing

im so bored!!!!

so decided to edit my blog again... and design it by myself.. but also with the help of others..
inspiration from denotedlove as stated in the credits.. for more look there..

ive change my url of my blog..

You see the smiles
I hide the pain
You live in denila
While i go insane

Nobody listens
Nobody cares
Nobody notices
Yet everyone stares

Why does it matter
If i'm still alive
sometimes i'm anxious
for death to arrive

another poem about life

NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS

I remember a time when each day was long,
When the world was a playground and my life was a song.
And i fluttered through years with barely a care,
Ignoring the future and what waited there.

School was intriguing and filled with delights.
I played away daytimes and dreamed away nights.
My parents assure me I had nothing to fear,
And that no matter what happened, they'd always be there.

Little I knew of a world outside home,
Where tragdy, sorrow and murder could roam.
All i saw were blue skies, rainbows and stars.
I looked past desturction of buildings and cars.

As a child, my biggest concern was just me;
I had to be happy, I had to be free.
And if I was content, i would not shed a tear,
And no matter what happened, I still would be here.

But as i grow up, darkness starts to set in;
My bright world has turnes into concrete and tin.
I now see the violence I looked past before;
My friends start to die and my heart hits the floor

Deadly diseases claim people i love,
There are landfills below me, pollution above.
I often think back to when life was a game.
But no matter what happens, it cant be the same.

There are days when I just want to break down and howl,
To give up completely, to throw in the towel,
But i hold my head high and I push my way through.
I have too much to give and so much to do.

And i make a vow that, though it'll be hard,
I'll go on with a smile and play every card.
I'll give all I can, help tohers and love.
No matter what happens, life will bloom again
And the strength I dont have will come from above

So come, take my hand, and through darkness we will sail
If we all join together, we never can fail.
We'll remember to care, remember to fell,
And no matter what happens, our would we will heal.

JANINA SAN MIGUEL - BB. PILIPINAS; Q&A portion

Paolo Bediones: Janina, how are you?

Janina San Miguel: I'm fine.

Paolo Bediones: Alright, so you won two of the major awards - Best in Long Gown, Best in Swimsuit, do you feel any pressure right now?

Janina San Miguel: No, I don't feel any pressure right now.

Paolo Bediones: Confident! Alright! Please choose a name of the judge.

Paolo Bediones: We have Miss Vivian Tan.

Vivienne Tan: Good Evening.

Janina San Miguel: Good Evening.

Vivienne Tan: The question is, what role did your family play to you as candidate to Binibining Pilinas?

Janina San Miguel: Well, my family's role for me is so important becos der was da wa- they're, dey was da one who's... very... Haha... Oh I'm so sorry, Ahhmm... My pamily... My family... Oh my god... I'm... Ok, I'm so sorry... I... I told you that I'm so confident... Eto, Ahhmm, Wait... Hahahahaha, Ahmmm, Sorry guys becos dis was really my pirst pageant ever b'coz I'm only 17 years old and ahahaha I, I did not expect that I came from, I came from one of the taf 10. Hmmm, so... but I said dat... my family is the most important persons in my life. Thank you

watch this video.. JANINA just made a fool of herself with her wrong grammars of speaking in english
she always use the word was...i think she belongs to the past...
even a grade 1 student could out speak her!

People like her belongs to the LOW class CITIZENS! and yet she won the title as MISS WORLD??? youve got to be kinding me... those stupid judges dont know how to judge at all!!
that isnt a COMEDY BAR for pits sake!!
shes bringing embarrassment to the Philippines and i suggest she'll use that 7 months to train herself speaking in english... the deserving type should be BEAUTY-AND-BRAINS-type of person but she only got beauty... what she need is beauty and LOTS AND LOTS of brains!!

her age isnt an excuse of her wrong grammers i mean im 15 and i can speak english well...

and the question was: "what role did your family play to you as candidate to Binibining Pilinas?"
yet her answer is: "my family is the most important persons in my life"

shes so OUT of the question.. tsk tsk... i pity people like her

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nothing make me happier than being with my best buddies...
next school year we will be separate from 3 sections..
live life.. and enjoy anyway...
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new layout submitted at blogskin
my pevious layout...
click here

blanked-face

we went out today.. and i got buy myself a tee from ZARA with my own money haha...
apprently i dont have anything to blog about except for i wanna go to school!!!!
life is boring here at home... other then playing games i dont know what to do..
my parents always said that "Why are you facing in the comp. again" and they all go breserk and ground me... damn! what am i suppose to do then?? go out by the door and get some fresh air... like duh! theres no fresh air here... if im gonna go outside sands will ran throu my face rather than fresh air...

"i happen to tell a story than she turn her back and make this so-what expression"

PS: dont take that phrase to seriously... i happen to just create it for fun if somewhat do that...hahaha

whuat?!

okai... exams is over!!! woooohhh!! IM FINALLY FREE!!!
no more quizzes and assignment to cram about!

im going to school... next week and the whole of it... im not gonna sit around here and do nothing.... its the only week that i could go bonding with my friends cause next school year we would be separated into 3 sections and that just so devastating *wonder if its correct* im gonna bring my monopoly board game and so does my camera ^___^
i should be editing my blog layout right now but this its gonna log out in 15 mins.. spare it dont waste it! damn!!!

life is so hard to face it! i feel like i want to cry not... not because of this.. like duh! of something else...

im gonna share to you some poems....


GIVE RANDOM ACTS OF KINDNESS A TRY!

one dismal evening just a few months ago,
when the sky was dark and the streets we covered with snow
i had nothing specific in mind and wasn't sure what to do,
since it was one of those chilly nights that leave you feeling a bit blue

i shuffled through a few papers and picked up a book
and without giving it much thought, decided to take a look.
It was one those volumes filled wuth dozens of stories
That told tales of victories, failures and speacial glories.

There was an account of a boy who went to school and learned,
And another girl who got the toy whiuc she yearned.
Then i cam to a story about someone just like us
Who decided to spend a day doing random acts of kindness.

Every thought gift and kind word said with grace,
Brightened someone's day abd left a smile on their face.
I sat back to ponder the story and came up with a thought
If everyone tried to share some happiness and kindness sought

Wouldn't our world be so much more pleasant than it is now
When a few more smiles and time for othere we'd allow?
I baked a batch of cookines today, and i know a lady down the street
Who im sure would lofe a few moments' company and a home-baked treat

and her lonely neighbor who always seems a bit sad and gray
I think a nice visit from someone would just make her day.
Well, it was starting to get late, so i decided to get some sleep
After i made a list of things to do the next day and appointments to keep

When i got up in the morning i went to school with a goal in mind
I would try to cheer a few people up and find ways to be kind.
I bid "Good Morning" and smiled at everybody I met.
A few returned the greeting, then our separate ways we went.

Someone dropped their books, so i helped gather them willingly,
And i noticed the more i helped others, the more they helped me!
After i went home i packaged some cookies to share,
Attaching a note that said "Just because I care".

When they opened the doors, you should have seen their faces light with glee
And watched their sniles as they exclaimed, "You mean you cam to visit lonely old me!"
Later in the evening, i sat down and wrote a few notes
Wishing the recipient a greak week, before sealing them in envelopes.

Then i took a few moments to think about my day
and realized i received even more joy than i had given away
Because every time you smile or with a cheerful word part,
The warmth of that kindness penetrates into your own heart.

We're only given a short time to spread some cheer before we die,
So why not give randoim acts of kindness a try?

im very so stupid!! i wish i just keep my trap shut!!! damn!
haha..... toinks.... ever so clueless..

im handicaped

my leg hurts T_____T
i had a hard time running and at the same time running also walking and climbing down the stairs.. huhuhuhuhuhu.... i fell into that...what i called is the "bench pit" curse that bench!!! im gonna saw it down! damn that!! i never thought im the next victim of the bench..!!!AHHHHH~~ huhuhu.. its hurts~~ good thing my friends came to the rescue ^____^

anyways.....im not suppose to go blogging but this is only "takas" mode.. so only short entry i gotta go...

damn! this layout sucks! im gonna change it

im Low bat.

gosh!!



im so beat! we went out at 10:30 am then come back home at 6 pm... can you believe it...?!?! my feet hurts and i want to go to sleep!

well.. so much for that i have to edit Imee's book and heaven's book also... !!!! AHHH!!!!!
why is this happening to me...!!!!


AT THE MALL

my dad bought a PSP for my lil bro... its a slim and lite thing.. so.. im not really suprised.... well.... a half maybe cause he asked it for only one day making demands of some sort and then he gets it just like that... while me... i have to beg or something.. went i get that camera... i waited for 2 years!!! you got to be kinding mee!!!!


when i was playing PSP im really half way getting addicted to it... haha.. !! i most dont want to go blogging and netting.. but just downloading games for the PSP and i want to download the DINNER DASH haha

wahhh!!!!! my mum's english way of speaking if driving me CRAZY!!! (with caps) haha...

yah know what... i dont know what the hecks wrong with me....but i just said "yes" and it should be a "no"... heaven called be and said "hey. can you edit my book..transfering it all in publisher" and i was like "okay"... when i hung up the phone.. ive came back to my senses

"what did i just said?!?!....! NOOOO!!!.. why did i said "yes" im super BUSY!!! with capital B-U-S-Y!!!"

i want to scream and shout!!! damn!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i should edit imee's book and plus heaven's book...

but entirely im not gonna do it.. T___T ill continue imee's book in the library.. and just save images then she can do it in the library otherwise then i should be deserving to have the grade then them

imee's book - she like emo and stuff so im gonna save images related to that and that includes the bloody type of image and some sort

heaven's book - i really dont know what she likes but i do know shes a bit girly so ill go for the kawaii look....

for my book (im finished) it actullay is RANDOM!

thats what it is....

pls UNDERSTAND... COZ TOMORROW... IM GROUNDED!!! only for a week.. T__T

i can only comp. till 8 and thats my mum idea.... omg.... why dont they just mind there own business...

NOT AGAIN!!!

*sniff*

i feel like my YM is block again..... i cant open it.. but good thing i know a site where i can open it throu web... haiizzz...
im doing and editing the book of imee... but nothing seems to come right out of this head...
but ill try my best to finish this...

IM SOOOO NOT IN THE MOODDD!!!! i want to sleep!!

this would be my last entry for today.. since next week would be our achievement test and Quarterly Exams... gosh!

my brains are all poofed... they need a rest... and i too need a rest...

my eyebags are way over my nose.. haha.. just kidding..

i dont have anything to blog about..... :(

as always... i wanna WATCH brown sugar macchiato!!!!

huhuhu... but too bad exams is coming up thats why i cant watch...

this is one damn day!!!!!!!!.... im so beat!
tired and sleepy........

i feel like i want to sleep right here in this keyboard....

oh well.... gotta go anyway...

bye to all... will be in hiatus mode for 1 week :(

currently will be studying my BRAINS out!
so goodluck to all...

and remember:

"Look up for inspiration, down for concentration but dont look side by side for INFORMATION"

i guess you all know what im talking about... all you need is common sense to understand that lousy quote...

if you cant understand it... then your not HUMAN! your probably an alien waiting to dominate the world with your stupid wisecracks...

damn i dont know what the hek im sayin' here... when it flows it flows...

flows?????? where did i ever get that word??

oh well.....

im gonna watch "brown sugar macchiato" anyway.. im so curious and wanna know what happened to TongTong

gotta bounce see yah!

Brown Sugar Macchiato

weee...!!! i love that DRAMA!!!!!!! so funny and all!!
currently im still in episode 2 part 3/9

you people should watch it... heres the music video...and its absolutely loved!




i plan to create a music video (Frienship) got a lil inspired about the song "Hei Tang Xiu"
haha... i love every beat of that music... it takes off all my stress and boredness!!! gosh!
but my videos are all incomplete and so are some... anyway... its still nice thou if its complete...
im in love with Ao Quan and Wang Zi!! haha... bhezzi bleehhh wang zi and ao quan is mine :P
nyahaha...

its hard to be me...

you know what... i think im burden to all this friendship fights..
its REALLY hard to protect a friend when you dont even know what to say.... (it took time to realize)
im really so speechless.. half of me.. thinks she right.. but...
you just have to remeber when you get into the circle of friendship...
remeber that in a friend you should also see her bright side-point-of-view
not always that negative ones.... so for now. im so speechless...
im not taking sides...

but for now.. i see the bright side of my friend...
i remember that time in at the bench..she said something to me...
and it really made me cry.. im so moved of what she said..
but half of me.. i get a lil bit bothered...but who cares anyway.. ive learned it the hard way...
anyway...people try to tell her and confront her about her attitude but she seem to cry it off....
the way i see it... dont be so harsh anyway... that person has a heart...
but i really do think that saying whats best for her (changing her attitude) is what all we want..
sayin' whats on your mind.. and got no time to think of it...
you dont even know what youve hurt someone of what you said..
yet you dont try to understand...
maybe a simple talk could change her.. yet... i dont even know whats wrong with her.
i know some of her negative sides yet... her positive sides a top her bad ones
anyway.... im not really good at giving advices.. im never were
so beats me.. who cares anyways..

lets talk about me

im not that "malambing" im dont easily say "i luv u" 's to my friends if i dont mean it..
i have such a high pride and thats what i hate the most (of myself)
i show no emotions (haha) neverthless.. i dont open my problems in public (cuz i dont want that thing to ruin my day)
i may not make emotions that "I CARE".. but infact.. i "DO CARE" im just not showing it...
i may not express whats on my mind...but a true friend could see right through that face
i may talk so fast... (okai.... thats off the topic)

ERASE!!!!!

as i was sayin.. i dont repeat myself.. nyahaha

okay.. till here... i dont have to fill in this space.... i never would have though i would say something here.... but who reads this shit anyway..

how i wish theres a password code somewhere for a topic to be close and limited only....

some javascripts just dont work!!


D A M N I T!

yah know what...

hope floats and so does SHIT!

i hate posting topic like this...but the situation made me too


okai.. topic move....

currently addicted to "brown sugar macchiato" taiwanese drama .. i so like that drama!!!!
i love the part when xiao jie's toothbrush fell on the toilet..then he get another toothbrush.. and it drops off at the toilet again!! hahaha... IM LAUGHING MY ASS OFF!




i love this song!

stressed out!

this was suppose to be my free day of relaxation and harmony.... so much for that i have truckloads of favors... why did i ever accept it in the first place?!

Things to do:
1. Investigatory Project
2. Valentines Card (dunno if still accepted)
3. Edit book of Heaven
4. Latin American personalities for Isabel
5. Songs for Diane

ahh... ill edit this post later on... im gonna sleep and leave this comp. alive

no happy ending

not anymore!

ENGLISH
no what.. im so so so HAPPY! and never i had ever thought that people would actually appreciate my works. i worked for that project day and night.. and even though im not finished about that project in that time (friday) i always have time to help my friends... my mum scold me many times and that time i almost want to gave in and cry... im holding it back as best as i can cause i know after this my ecstatic time would come... and it did.. im so overwhelmed and never though my dad bought me a digital camera (canon cybershot) touchscreen.

and today.. as ive said.. about that book..i never though that M.G appreciate my work huhuhu... im so so speechless and i want to hind behind the covers when maam G said that i will be part of the IPSA LINK as layout editor... i was so so so SPEECHLESS! my face was as red as the tomatoes..
until then ive prepared myself that this so so so shocking and at the same time so jovial day would turn to another desolate day again.. and it did!! gosh! it happened so fast... im in complete shock! i want to SCREAM and SHOUT! sayin..

"why did i ever ***** ***... that thing doesnt even ***** on the ********* of ****** yourself"

im so ****** ! i shouldnt be **** like that.. ive learned my lesson... and im sticking to it...

and i dont want to talk about it...and never will going to open that useless topic coz its going nowhere... its still in its cycle .. over and over again and im getting tired..

and im going to END IT!


NEW LAYOUT

#2. Love Waits -kawaii simplicity-

submitting my layout at blogskins ^^

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